winter blues

i haven't posted for several months. i think the last time i did was right when we came home from spain, and i was going through some pretty intense culture shock. so it's kind of hard to catch up like 5 months of life, so i'll skip it. things are a little tough for me right now. i haven't worked all week because of visiting family, new year's, and some ridiculously cold weather here. i always forget every year how much it sucks to be a mason in the winter. i guess that's a lot of the reason why i'm going to be going to school. can't do this forever.

so the new year is bringing with it some new challenges for me. algebra, english; all those things that i haven't thought about since high school. i'm excited about learning again, but i would be lying if i said that i wasn't a little freaked out about it. sometimes i kick myself for not having gone to school right after high school. it's easy to think, "oh man, i would have all this done with by now, and have a good job, and a secure future." that's when i remember all of the great experiences that i've had, and all of the great people that i've met. i've lived over a year of my life abroad, and i probably would not be married to the wonderful woman that i am married to had i went to college right away.

so when i look back, i don't regret my decisions. i mean, i can always 'what if' myself, but i'm grateful for my life's experiences. i wouldn't be who i am today without them.

then there is the question of careers. i don't know, man. i still haven't made up my mind. i think i have trouble making decisions when there are so many options. i'm not stressing too much over that, though, right now. one step at a time, i'm sure God will provide.

God bless you all this winter. hopefully i have a chance to see you all sometime soon.

lenny